Andrew 16th November 2009

I have just read the words that I wrote and were read out for me at Angela's funeral; and they still sum up Angela in a perfect way. I wanted to share them all with you; I cannot start to put into words my love for Angela or the emotions that I am now feeling. However, I wanted to share just a few of my thoughts, feelings and memories with you all, along with some of Angela’s and my wishes for today and the future. Angela was the most loving, warm, considerate, caring, thoughtful and beautiful person that I have ever known. She continually put the welfare of others before herself every single day of her life. Even over the last few difficult months and weeks her concern over Megan; Joseph; her mum, dad and brother; her many dear friends; and myself, were more important to her than her own suffering and illness. She worked tirelessly and used what ever energy she had to make sure that all of us were not only ok at the time, but would be long into the future when she had gone. She had a unique ability to instantly develop a relationship with everyone that she met. But people were never just acquaintances, and she quickly developed deep and lasting friendships where she genuinely cared for others. Just looking at the number of people here today is testament to that and there are friends that represent every stage of her short life from childhood through to her final battle. Two of her good friends that she found only recently as they battled cancer together have said to me in the last few days that they felt as if they had known Angela all their lives. The ability to instantly create this feeling was just one small part of the magic of Angela. Angela’s real love in life was Megan and Joseph. The love that she had for them was infinite and she has ensured that this will continue, even though she is no longer with us. From the moment they were born she dedicated her life to them and a large part of her will continue to live in them. I cannot start to replace their mummy, but promised Angela that I would dedicate my life into continuing her love for them and bringing them up in the way she wanted. Their ability to cope with this difficult time has amazed me every single day over the last painful week and both Angela and I are extremely proud of them. They have been an amazing source of strength and I want to tell them now how much I love them and that I will always be here for them. Along with her children Angela had an amazing love for me. She made me the person I am and we supported each other through every step of our time together. Like many of you, Angela was also my friend. Long before we fell in love we developed a deep friendship, which underpinned our fantastic marriage. I have lost not only my wife, but my closest friend. She was a major part of me and we had developed a deep understanding over our shared time. We worked together as one in everything that we did and the loss and emptiness that I now feel cannot be explained. My life will never be the same without her. Over the last painful week I have found comfort in talking about Angela’s life with our families and our friends. The memories that we share collectively, will ensure that Angela will continue to live long into the future, despite her life being cut painfully short. Angela had ensured that I, her family and her close friends knew her wishes for today and the future. Whilst we inevitably feel sorrow at this point, she did not want us to be unhappy. She lived her life with happiness in all she did, and she wanted all of us to continue this today and into the future. Whilst we say goodbye to her here in one way, it is not the end of Angela. Today we also celebrate her fantastic life and she, and I, want to ensure that her memories live forever and that we create a legacy for Megan and Joseph. We can all play a part in this in two immediate ways. First, I want to ask that all of you continue to remember and talk openly about Angela with Megan and Joseph long into the future. Whilst we all find this painful at times, I want Megan and Joseph to know the wonderful person that is their mummy through all of us. Secondly, you will find later at the Charnwood Arms, memory cards. I ask you all to write a memory of Angela on these and place them in the boxes you will find. These are for Megan and Joseph and will form an amazing record of Angela’s life that they, and I, can treasure for many years. If any of you are unable to attend later at the Charnwood then you will find some cards at the back of the church, and I would ask you to complete one before you leave. Finally, I just want to say; Angela, I have always loved you with all my heart and I will always continue to love you until I die. You were everything to me and a large part of me has gone with you. I will never forget you.